I am tired of trying to discover real people behind their masks. Hypocritical people surround me and they try to take advantage of me. They think i am weak and stupid. We'll see...

home-less

Until now i couldn't understand why my room is a mess. Why i can't put order, make it home, feel home. It's just because it's not home.
I don't like my housemates. They have two faces. They are not good people. Just the french is honest. The others cannot look in the eyes, their hypocrisy gives them away.

Miss a place to call home.

sister sufragette

YING YANG

i am sad. very sad. i saw this necklace yesterday and it made me feel better. the world works like that. good and evil, the tragical couple. eternal oponents and yet they cannot be without the other.

so i wear it and i remember. and then i don't feel so brokenheart because there is evil in my good and it's nothing i can do to change it.

i am an outsider.

lying in my bed i hug the absence of your body in my sheets.
I spent my day trying to get into your life
reading you, thinking you, missing you

i am scared, scared of not being enough for you,
scared of razor blades and ghosts
and meanful silences

and you are far away